Hope :-)

I need to start listening to my own advice.

Well, something devastating happened. My boyfriend broke up with me. I'm having trouble adjusting. But someone wise told me today, that I need to stop talking to him. I want to be friends, but I guess from his perspective it looks like I'm just trying to get him back. In a way I do, but most importantly I want him to be happy. Sincerely, I do. .I care about him. But if says he's not happy with me anymore, than he shouldn't be with me.

Yea, I'm hurt. Most of the time I'm great, happy to be living, but sometimes I think about the moments we had, being in his arms, looking in his blue eyes, and being loved by the most wonderful person. That is what hurts me, and puts a ball in my throat. Like right now.

But as an adult, I have to learn how to bypass the hard things, and learn from them. Yea, we might hurt from something we truly wanted, but things happen for a reason. God never puts us through things we can't handle. I know I will be stronger from this. But I still want to be held.

To all my blog readers, don't be let down by the devastating moments, because we are too blessed to be depressed. I love all my friends and family, I still even love him. But our lives are full of love, and any let down, whether a relationship or anything else, we will all get past it. There is hope at the end of the darkness.

The mornings after he broke up with me were captivating. I sleep with my blinds open so the sun wakes me up. But a few mornings last week, the sunrise woke me. As i opened my eyes i saw the most beautiful gift that He has given me. As the sun rose that morning, the colors were truly captivating. I love the sunrise, and God knows that. He gave me the most beautiful give and hope for a new day. After every devastating moment when we feel like we are going to fall apart, we need to see that next beautiful morning because there is always a new day and always hope.

He is a great friend and I still love him, but I have hope for a new day.